I’m having one of those days where things aren’t easy. It’s not that anything out of the ordinary is happening either. Maybe it’s because I’m extra tired. Seamus woke up a little before 2 am and got into bed with us. This isn’t out of the ordinary by any means, but it was earlier than he usually comes in. He sat in bed with us and watched a movie and was still awake at 5 am. At this point I really was getting frustrated so I movedd into his bedroom and slept in his beanbag chair. I woke up at 7:26 because Jeremy came in to get clothes for Seamus. Guess what? We had an 8am appointment down at the hospital. I got dressed quickly and let the dogs outside. Out the door we went. He had a great session with Hannah today. We stopped and saw Jeremy at work afterward as a special treat. We stop often for visits at the office but they don’t mind. In fact it was reinforced today that it is encouraged. We got home and had breakfast and a half a pot of coffee for the mombie.
The mail came and the letter on top was from the neurologist. Dr Joe Barber. I knew what it was without opening it. It was the evaluation report from his appointment on June 20th. I’m not sure why, but opening the envelope and reading the report was harder than sitting in his office and hearing him say that our child is on the Autism Spectrum. He’s not a cookie cutter kid. He’s a little different and always will be. It reminded me that this isn’t something we will be dealing with short term. He will probably have therapies to go to for years if not indefinitely to help him function in a world that doesn’t see things the same way he does. He’s an amazing little person and I love him just the way he is. I just hope the rest of the world will grow to accept him as he is.
Maybe it’s the gloomy sky that has me feeling off, news from a friend that her life is changing forever, and a reminder that ours will always be different. Who knows. I guess it makes it a perfect day to snuggle up on the couch with the people you love and remind yourself about what is important. Which is of course cold milk, blankie, 2x hippos, and a kindle fire.